Embarrassment and frustration

A few months ago a friend asked me to speak about how our family has used essential oils in our home to keep everyone healthy. I gladly said yes! I love talking about how they have blessed our lives, little did I know that Eric would be out of town and the older two would be at Kelly Canyon, one for their school ski night and the other for a merit badge clinic. So, I would have to go with the three younger kiddos to speak. I was under the impression I would be near the middle of the panel to speak and that a sitter would be in the nursery to help with the kids. True to my life things did not go as planned. No sitter, kids were crazy from sugar from the school parties for Valentines day and I was the last to go. Well, after an hour of twenty minutes I still hadn't gone. Abe was acting all crazy and I was getting the judgmental looks from other there. The kind like: why would you bring your kids when you have to speak. why cant you control your child. My kids would never act that way I could go on and on about how I am sure people were annoyed with my kids. No one was more annoyed than me. Of course everyone wanted to hold BrynnLe, but not one person offered to help with the boys. Abe had been running in and out and then to the nursery where David decided to lock him out so Abe was banging on the door to get in. I had had it! I scooped up my boys gathered my things and put BrynnLe in her seat and left....totally humiliated as the panel was still in progress. I have never left without fulfilling my commitment, but I could not do it last night. My cup was empty and I needed to get my kids home, out of the judgmental eyes of others and in bed. I guess I was frustrated even more that not one person offered to help. If the roles were reversed I would really hope that I would offer to take kids. Here is a little back story of how this week has gone... Eric has been gone for three weeks, he came home last weekend, but it was filled with craziness, so not much got done. The ski program takes up a ton of my time and and get to deal with some crazy parents in the process. I don't think they realize that all of us volunteer our time to make the program run. Some days I wonder if it is worth it! Tuesday I get to go to the school to gather money for the ski trip on Wed. I get to take the two youngest kids with me while trying to gather and sort money and papers from 120 kids. I then rush home so I can enter all the info into a spreadsheet so I can get my numbers to Kelly Canyon...at some point my kids get fed! We have a quick dinner and then I am off to Mutual at 6:30. We got home after 9:00. I get home to find that a few parents have dropped ski money and forms off while I was gone...argh...so I enter them into my spread sheet and finally get to go to bed. Wed. I get to be at the school by 8:00 to open the trailer, I am there until 8:50 and then I get home in time to feed BrynnLe and get things ready to get Abe from school. I then rush to town to get Valentines for Dave and Abe for the next day. I get home in time to feed Abe and BrynnLe, get my papers gathered together for the ski trip and parents are calling...some wanting to add their kid for today! uh...NO!! Time is gone and I should be at the school, thank heavens Elsha comes over to get BrynnLe and take Abe to a neighbor. I get to the school to open the trailer and get things loaded! I take BrynnLe with me to the ski hill and it was nice weather and amazing snow, I had planned to ski that day, but time did not allow me to gather my things to do so :( We leave the hill and then when we get to the school all the kids are picked up...except for two girls. Their parents "forgot" about them! parents should be there at 9:00, they finally arrived at 9:45! As if I have nothing better to do than wait in the cold for a parent to come an pick up their child. I was so frustrated. I still had valentines to put together. Thurs. The boys were rushing out to catch the bus. Rob didn't take his snow stuff for the ski trip. I had to work on all the deposits for the ski trips and get the bills paid. Then BrynnLe had therapy and then I had to take Rob his things at the school...try to find Kamren because he had piano, he was nowhere to be found. I went home to find he rode the bus, so his piano lessons were 30 min. later then I had planned. I had to take him to Kellys after and then be home to speak at 7:00. I pulled into Rigby at 6:35 and we hadn't eaten yet. I ran got food for the boys and they ate fast and then off to the Church....I was already spent by the time I arrived. And the boys acting out was the icing on the cake for me. And then when not one soul offered to help me out I lost it. I put the kids to bed and just cried. People should be more compassionate. We don't know what others are going through or what events have happened to lead up to why somethings are happening. It was a terrible day. I am putting it behind me now and pray that if I ever see someone in need of a hand I will be more than willing to be that person. One more week to go before Eric is home and I don't have to do it alone!